My latest poems
Fading Memories
I stand before the body in front of me
Cold
Not moving
Who could’ve killed this person?
Certainly not me
My hands have no blood on them
And I have no weapon on me
My mind is full of fog
I couldn’t remember what has happened to me
In the present
In the past
The world started spinning
My view was blurry
My knees buckled
And I fell upon the body before me
With familiar hair
Her freckles sprinkled across her cheeks
A familiar birthmark on arm
Her eyes were open wide
With the innocence she used to have
The fog in my mind clears
Blood appears on my hands
and I realize
I killed this person
This person is me
I killed the person I used to be
I walked with myself
to an unknown destination
Meeting the wrong people led us to the wrong road
Rather than being the one who hurts other
I became the one hurt
I realized how truly ugly we were
How ugly the world now seemed to be
I laid down and fell asleep
and dreamed
When I could watch a sunset
and say that it’s beautiful
When I could swing on a swingset
and believe that I could reach the sky
When I wasn’t walking a path of tragedy
My dream ends
But I keep my eyes shut
trying to hold onto my only salvation
Slowly I open my eyes
The body next to me is gone
I sit up feeling empty
Regrets of the Past
His voice is a quiet whisper
One I can’t understand nor hear
But it’s there
Every memory is blurred
Except one
But it’s slipping away from my grasp
Appapa , I’m Sorry
I squirm in my chair unsure what to do
My small feet swing in the air
Still too short to reach the dirt ground
My eyes trail around the room
Cracked walls with lizards crawling
An opening in the wall
leading to a dark room everyone refused to go into
A door covered in photos of my family
A small bed on the side
Where an old man sat
His limbs as thin as sticks
He breathed in the air and coughed
His eyes still held youth
And his voice was clear and firm
Still the young strong lawyer inside
Appapa, I’m Sorry
Appa nudged me to go to him
As I stepped closer Appapa studied me
And I did the same
He held me in his lap as Appa took photos
My small fingers curled around the cloth of his pants
My other hand slipped into his
I smiled
And he laughed and spoke
with the bit of happiness he lacked since Appamma past
But I couldn’t understand the words he spoke
He smiled and put me down
He spoke to Annan
And I reached to stroke his cat
Appapa, I’m sorry
We stayed for a week there
And I spent it in front of a portable tv
Watching Tom and Jerry
Appapa I’m Sorry
I lived for 8 years as a Hindu
And I didn’t bother to learn the language
Appapa I’m Sorry
I sat there paralyzed
As Appa cried
singing for you
Appapa I’m Sorry
Now I hold my regrets and my memories
As I fall to my knees
And cry